Inside me, heaven exists. Bliss. Nirvana. Self-derived happiness. Outside of my body exists discomfort. A feeling of despair exists outside my body. Everything I do it involves moving through discomfort.
Everything is so intolerable now. This feeling continues to perpetuate itself because there’s so much that needs to change that change doesn’t happen quickly. I know this is normal. If people were to measure my results by one metric they would be confused to see what seems like no progress.
The unexpected hostile judgment caught me off guard, especially from those who I mistakenly put my trust in their hands. I changed so much and I’ve been trying to figure out how to navigate this new life. I feel that I’ve been fighting hard to not let my decisions lead me back to comfort and decay. Nothing I’m doing is comfortable. Everything is chaotic because there’s so much to change. I live in a different world than I used to.
I’m taking all the tools and shaping myself because I recognize that I am the most important thing to work on right now. I feel that the path I am taking is a path taken by very few people big names such as Bill Gates, Elon Musk, Nikola Tesla, and Steve Jobs. How many other big players have followed the path like that? The truth is, each person I listed had a unique path to their great contribution to the world. I want to be me. Is that too much to ask?
The path I’m taking scares many people and yes there is a healthy amount of fear that goes behind making a decision that seems insane. Yet I know that it’s the way to go everything stems off of a lifelong journey of me actually pursuing the goal of changing the world. The path to change the world is a path less taken.